I guess this is my first real Blog. I’m not going to broadcast this to anyone so if you are reading this then congratulations for being one of the few to read it.
I find it unbelievable how quickly the past 6 years have passed. I’m still here!! But I don’t quite know what my purpose is or what I’m trying to achieve (yet – and I ain’t looking too hard either 
). 90% of the last 6 years has involved me getting up to go to work, go to gym, jog, cycle, swim, watch TV, read the paper and at weekends socialise and drink beer. I pay my taxes and bum through the rest of it I guess – but I like it. I have good friends and take good holidays.
Boy am I lucky!! All this credit crunch shit that’s going on but I’m ok thank goodness. I have a regular wage and I don’t get stressed over it. Plus I try to do the least amount possible. Gone are the days when I was working my arse off! I’m not interested anymore in busting my gut into the twilight hours. Plus all the work is going to China anyway….. I’m in a win / win situation where my work load is comfortable and if I get laid off then I’d get redundancy. So all I have to do is sit tight but unfortunately there is not enough holiday time…. I’m itching to get lost somewhere. Maybe one day that’ll happen.
Ooops – I digressed there. Bali, Bali Bali! Bali, Bali Bali. I wish I could show people the stuff that’s in my head. I can’t believe I got through that! But I did! Next time I’d recognise it instantly. But I know for sure that if I described it perfectly to anyone and that person actually went through the same situation as I did then they would still not know what it is they are dealing with (that’s if they are alive). They will not say to themselves “Oh shit this must be what Paul told me about”. They won’t get that far. Thinking goes out the fucking window pal! If you chime a huge bell real hard and put your head into the middle of it then you’re getting close to what it was like! There is no pain…. that goes out the fucking window too!
I don’ regret anything I have said on my website because I know it is true. I’m just a minority right? I don’t stand a fucking chance against those fuckers! But I’ve complained through the official channels and have tried to put attitudes right. Its all there for everyone to view. But no one really gives a toss! I have tried to make a difference and have successfully helped other British victims of terror in Dahab and Maldives. Its been my pleasure!
Later. Paul.